紫曦雨

There’s a monster in each and every one of us.

A monster that’s capable of destruction.

我愛，不是因爲感到幸福。

我愛，是因爲我選擇愛。

我愛，不是因爲感到快樂。

每匹馬都可以成爲好馬，而每一匹好馬都可以成爲一匹千里馬，而每一匹千里馬都需要一位伯樂。

希望伯樂趕快出現吧~

I am a fan of facebook and twitter but never a big fan. I was never a heavy user, but I use it often enough to sustain a certain amount of web presence. So I do exist in the virtual world, but I just simply exist. I’d probably only caused a small blip on the radar screen once in a while. Enough to be noticed if you look hard enough and will probably be missed if you happened to blink too many times.

I never could quite understand why would anyone be interested in what I do, like “I am now waiting for a bus” or “I am on my way to work”. Alright, maybe I could make this a wee bit more interesting.

“I am now waiting for a bus, but the waiting has gone on for the past 30 min” or

I had never been known to be interesting and fun. But neither am I boring and mundane. Never too interesting and never too boring. It’s a so-called “neither here nor there”

I am not a herd follower but neither am I a trend setter. Again, I fall into the “neither here nor there” category. You are somewhere but you are not quite somewhere and neither are you nowhere. It’s kinda paradoxical but that’s just the way I am I guessed.

I blog, but never too much to be able to sustain an interest among readers. Just like you come onto a site everyday and there’s nothing new, and nothing updated, sooner or later, you just stopped coming onto the site, even if there’s something new, you’ll probably not know. Why? Because you are tired of coming onto the site and never seeing anything new, you basically lost interest I guessed.

兩句話，甚至一句話，難道真的那麽困難寫嗎。而且又不是寫給不熟的人，而是一起工作好幾年的同事。

遇到一些人的冷漠，真的無法理解。因爲只需要不到5分鐘時間寫的兩句話，等了兩天，還是沒有回應。

是因爲忙嗎，所以沒時間花5分鐘寫兩句祝福的話？

上個星期看了Step Up 3，《舞力全開》，看完後真的是振奮人心，就很想當場來個breaking，後空翻什麽的。啊，可是我的老骨頭已經是不行了，一個不小心從沙發上站起來都搞不好會閃到腰。雖然沒辦像電影裏面的男女主角跳得那麽厲害，不過至少看完電影之後，大大地激勵我去追求我的熱忱，也就是音樂。這個電影講就是有夢想就不要放棄，要勇敢去追求。其實電影題材很簡單，故事内容也沒什麽特別，不過我就是喜歡電影帶給觀衆的震撼力。你看完之後，不可能沒有感覺。即便你是個舞蹈白吃，可是這部電影的主題就是勇於追求夢想，跟你會不會跳舞沒很大的關係。

我這一大把年紀了，看完電影後，好像時光逆轉10年，我又要重新出發了。激勵自己用於追求夢想。年紀不是問題，最怕是沒有夢想，人生也就失去意義了。不是說要去死，而是人生失去意義，也就是人生變得好無聊單調無色彩。那活得那麽無趣，太痛苦了。所以這部電影給了我很大的激勵，而且電影中的其中一個男主角也給了我很大的衝擊。

8月22日是華文教會的第一次敬拜讚美詩歌分享會。籌備了近一個半月的時間，我們終成功的分享10首完全由華文教會會友創作的敬拜讚美詩歌。這對華文教會來説是具重要意義的里程碑。

華文教會自成立以來，所唱的詩歌不是英文或印尼翻譯的詩歌，就是台灣教會的詩歌。英文詩歌翻譯成中文，怎麽唱都沒有華文詩歌的味道。印尼詩歌翻譯成中文雖然唱起來非常順，可是始終不是中文原創。臺灣教會的詩歌，怎麽說也是其他教會的詩歌，或許在曲風上跟我們教會的不同。所以一開始有這個分享會的念頭就是因爲我們希望可以用屬於我們華文教會創作的詩歌來敬拜神。

其實早在年初，因爲跟陳牧師的一次談話，激發了我想要創作更多敬拜讚美詩歌的決心。一直以來，我都在寫流行歌曲，幾乎沒有幾首敬拜讚美詩歌創作。在這次分享會之前，我只寫過一首讚美，一首敬拜。而兩首這是負責填詞，曲的部分則于孟奇負責。陳牧師那時候問了一句“你們都在寫流行歌曲，爲什麽不寫敬拜讚美詩歌呢？”。當下，我也不知道怎麽回復，我自己也覺得奇怪爲什麽我都沒寫敬拜讚美詩歌呢？當時，猶如豁然開朗的感覺，我決定開始多創作敬拜讚美詩歌。陳牧師也鼓勵我召集其他愛創作的會友，一起創作敬拜讚美詩歌，或許有一天，華文教會還可以自己發行敬拜讚美專輯。

2010年7月4日，又是妃天倫音樂夢想的一個起航點，我們終于正式成立了我們自己的樂團。自《妃天倫創作演唱會》至今，我們沉靜了兩年多。2008年2月25日演唱會的那一天，感覺已經好遙遠了。不過休息了好一陣子，我們又要再次出發了。

為《妃天倫創作演唱會》而組的band也只是暫時性的安排，隨著演唱會的落幕，我們的band也解散了，大家也各忙各的。Band解散後，我都一直在找尋樂手和歌手，想成立自己的樂團，彈奏並演唱自己的創作。不過過程中一直讓我非常沮喪。以爲找到了人選，可是最終還是因爲“忙碌”這兩個字，讓我空歡喜一場。樂手真的很難找。好的樂手幾乎都在教會的敬拜讚美團服事，而他們的服事讓他們沒辦法再抽出時間有額外的團練。托了許多朋友幫我留意樂手，可是最終都沒有消息。我們甚至還辦了一次歌手樂手甄選活動，可是當天來甄選的樂手也只有兩位。而兩位都沒有達到我們期待的水平

雖然求婚至今已經3個月了，不過我好像都沒把求婚影片po上來我的網誌。

After spending countless hours pouring through the many different interpretations, analysis and theories of “Inception” online and also watching the movie for the second time, I have arrived at my own conclusion and interpretation of the whole movie.

But I will definitely not lay claim to having fully comprehend the movie. I guessed the beauty of Chris Nolan’s movie is that it’s opened to many interpretations and there’s no right or wrong in anybody’s interpretations as long as it make sense with no clear loop holes.

我最近很少用中文寫作了，不過我都沒在閑著。我幫我們教會的報章City News 寫了一篇文章。借po過來這好了。

以下是我的原稿

這個連接是校過搞的

Recently found myself thinking and conversing more in English. One big factor in the change is because of my girlfriend. We converse in English 99% of the time, with the rare occasion of trying to intersperse some Chinese words or sentences during our predominantly English conversation.

不過我的邏輯思考是英文，我的情感表達則是中文。

中文有一種特質，簡單幾個字，卻包含了很多層的意思。中國人説話的藝術在於不直接表達意思，它有一種含蓄之美，想象空間很大。

What price to pay…for the anointing for success? Our lives…for God.

要得到成功的恩膏，是需要付上代價的。就是你的全部...交托於神。

The beauty of testimonies...it never fails to inspire.

I love hearing testimonies of how people who triumph over odds heavily stacked against them. And the beauty of it all is...these people are ordinary people to start with, nobody gave them any real chance of success, some not even given a second look. But with belief and hardwork...and of course by the grace of God, success is achieved out of the ordinary, against the backdrop of doubt.

That's why testimonies are such powerful tools, because it never fails to inspire.

最近新加坡大大小小的報章都在報導著我們國寶級人物，著名導演梁智強的出軌行爲。

他到底做了什麽也沒什麽好説的了，看新聞報導就可以知道的一清二楚。

整件事件，也讓我們看到兩個極端的人性表現。一個犯了錯，一個饒恕了。這也引起了兩個極端的回應。有些人馬上下了判決，認爲梁罪孽深重，罪該萬死，不可饒恕。有些人則心懷慈悲，選擇憎惡可恥的行爲，不過原諒犯錯的人。

Seeing is believing only when we see with an unadulterated mind.

Sometimes people choose not to believe still even when they see something happening right in front of their own eyes. Because in their mind, they have already decided what they want to believe.

Alas, these people live in denial.

When you believe in someone, you empower him to greater achievement. It is just a simple believe in someone, that provides the motivation and impetus to excel beyond what he usually can.

And that applies to self too. When you believe that you can, there is really nothing that will stop you from achieving beyond yourself. It’s such a powerful tool and none too difficult to wield and in the process empowering someone.

We need more people to believe in us, and we need to believe in others more, and we definitely need to have more self belief, because that is what will carry us through to a place of greater achievements.

It is not e fear of sharing that one choose to keep silent but for e fear of being misunderstood
一個人保持沉默不是因爲害怕分享，而是害怕被誤解

有些人會跟你相處很久，卻不會真的成為你的朋友。
有些人跟你短暫的相處，卻成爲了你一輩子的朋友。

交朋友有時候真的是看緣份。